Wednesday 7.18.12
So we made it through the night. Pain wasn't too horrible (Thank goodness for the pain pump!) I was checked on every few hours and my blood pressure was monitored. I managed to sleep pretty well from 3:30 am till about 7am And then I found it fairly hard to sleep.
We had 2 sets of visitors this morning, which was a huge surprise for me. My coworker Lori stopped by for a quick visit. She wanted to find out what happened, so she could report back to everyone at work. We also got a visit from Pat's cousin Emi, her husband and their girls. They even brought us these adorable clothes for you. Thank goodness for the preemie and newborn clothes, otherwise you would have been naked.
I am still on a clear diet (which sucks!) Breakfast consisted of Sprite, cranberry juice, jello and chicken broth..ick! I wasn't too hungry yet, but by lunch I was starving! ( I did sneak a few swigs of coke for my caffeine fix, since I was getting a massive headache..Shhh..don't tell the nurses!) I also had a few bites of the McDonalds McDouble that dad brought back for lunch! :)
Dad and grandma keep visiting you at the NICU and bringing your milk. They would also bring back all of these great photos since I haven't gotten to meet you yet. I love this picture..you look so sweet and soft. I can't wait to hold you.
So small and tiny
Keeping warm in the isolette
By 7pm there was another shift change which gave me Darby. I really enjoyed her, and she seemed just as eager to get me up to see my baby and turned off from the Mag as I was! She told me that hopefully by midnight we would be transferring to the postpartum side with a pit stop at the NICU. (she kept her promise!) Around 10pm, my IV was turned off, the Fentanyl was stopped (after one last "hit" for the pain) , Mag was done being administered and the catheter removed. I am so excited. By 10:45 we start packing up the room onto the transfer cart, and just hung out and waited for Darby to transfer us. Just before midnight, she got me cleaned up, and I got to wash my face and brush my teeth finally, and put on a new gown.
Thursday 7.19.12
12:15am We are finally heading out to the NICU! It feels so good to finally get out of bed, and have the compression socks taken off. I am so excited to see my baby and also a little nervous since she is so small.
12:20 am I finally get to hold Mallory. I was so shocked at first at how small and almost fragile she is. I then start to cry. I am so happy!! I then unwrap her and check her out..I can't believe how many wires she is hooked up to. 3 chest stickies, an IV, a O2 sensor, baby "low jack" bracelet, and 2 hospital bracelets.(1 on her arm and 1 on her leg) I play with her little fingers and toes, and then head over to my new room for the night. I am very satisfied with my trip.
The first thing I did after getting situated in my room was order breakfast.(and my next 3 meals!) I was SO excited for this I could barely stand it! 7:30am my tray arrived with my Rice Krispies, french toast, cinnamon roll, oj, and chocolate and white milk.
We go down to the NICU every 3 hrs for feedings starting at 11:30am. I am still pretty sore from surgery, and we take the wheelchair to our feedings. (It is just to far to walk) Our feeding schedule is 8:30, 11:30, 2:30, 5:30, 8:30, 11:30) We often skip the middle of the night feedings, just so I can get some rest..and we have quite the supply of milk already in the freezer they can feed her with
Another HUGE highlight of my day..I finally got to shower!! And it felt AMAZING!! I was a little nervous how it was going to feel on my incision, but it wasn't too bad. There was even a bench in there if I wanted to sit down. I felt like a new woman after getting clean.
After our morning feeding they had placed a feeding tube :( I was quite shocked to come back for the next feeding to find that, but know it is for the best. You seem to tolerate it well...the only problem is, you love to have your hands up by your head and you have grabbed at the tube several times by accident.
Friday 7.20.12
We finally decided on your middle name this morning (Lynn) after being stalked by the birth certificate lady for 3 days. It took us awhile (since you came early) we had it down to 3 names and decided to keep a family name going.
It took us 2.5 days to finally get a family picture of the 3 of us (outside of the OR) We just didn't think about it. We were so excited to see you, and hold you we just didn't think about it. But after some skin to skin time we got this shot.
You are very alert today..it's so good to see you with your eyes open.
You love to squeeze our fingers, and we enjoy it too. You are very strong!
After this feeding dad went home to shower and I took grandma to the next feeding.
This was her first time holding you and she was very excited for this. I wish it could have happened sooner, but the NICU only allows 2 people in at a time. Grammy loved holding you, while I pumped.
Dad surprised all of us tonight, when he arrived back at the hospital with a clean shaven face. I was so shocked when he walked in. I thought he was only going to trim his beard..not take it all off!
Saturday 7.21.12
We arrived at your 8:30am feeding to find you in the "baby tanning bed" I was very surprised to see this, but know that it is very common (especially in preemie babies) Your bilirubin levels were only slightly elevated..nothing to severe (and I didn't even think you looked that yellow to me.) You only needed one day under the lights.
Here you are with Cynthia, our favorite NICU nurse. We really formed a bond with her, and she loved talking to you while she was caring for you. She loved calling you "baby girl", and watching you sleep with your mouth open while you were "catching flies" She was never pushy, and left us alone a lot of the time to bond with you (which we really appreciated!)
I was finally "discharged" from the hospital this afternoon after 4 days. I was free to go! We were however put up in a "boarding room" which is a hospital room for NICU parents to stay at (free of charge) while your baby is still hospitalized. It is basically a hospital room, without nursing service or meals. We were very fortunate they had this room available, so we didn't have to keep running up to the hospital every 3 hours for a feeding.
Dad and I left the hospital after your 8:30 feeding. I remember walking through the door to the outside world and feeling free. Even if it was just to get some gas station food and take a drive..it felt good to get out! (even though it was still 95+ degrees out at 10pm at night!)
Upon arriving back at the hospital, we recognize a car that is parked next to ours as one of our friends. We later find out she is currently in labor.
Sunday 7.22.12
You have made fabulous progress since midnight. Your IV was removed, you no longer required the Bili light and you gained a half an ounce! (and pooped on dad!) The doctor who made rounds this morning said that your feeding tube may come out very soon. In order to do that, you need to be able to prove to them that you can eat, swallow and suck and gain weight on your own...so we got to bottle feed you for the first time today! You did very well!
You did have a "spell" today while I was feeding you. A Brady and Apnea lit up on your screen and the alarm started dinging at us. I didn't think it was big deal..since you beep anytime a sensor comes loose from you...until 3 nurses came running in. I was informed that your heart rate had dropped, and you had temporarily stopped breathing. Scary!! It happened once and you didn't need any resuscitation (you bounced right back as the nurses came in!) I think you were just enjoying your bottle so much, you forgot what you were doing! :)
You need to be spell free for 5 days in order to go home.
Madison Katherine arrived today, and is doing well. Megan was due on 7/30 (just 2 weeks before us.) We went down the hall to visit everyone today and share our birth stories.
Monday 7.23.12
I came in this morning to find that the nurses had dressed you in your very first preemie outfit overnight..you looked so cute! Such a big girl. And..NO FEEDING TUBE!! We are all so excited at this huge milestone for you. I knew you could do it.
We ran a bunch of errands between feedings today. Dad and I got your car seat installed in my car this morning, and we went and got a breast pump so we can feed you when we get home.
Dad and I spent the night at home in our own bed..which was fantastic. We let the nurses know that we would be back for your 8:30am feeding.
Tuesday 7.24.12
1 week old!!
How is this for my 37 week photo?? :) We have had a wonderful day today. You have been very happy, I'm feeling great after getting a good nights sleep and everyone says you will probably be going home this weekend! Yay!!
And then the phone call that changed everything. My girlfriend Kristin called this evening to say that they had lost their baby! I went blank...I was shocked, saddened, confused, numb..every emotion in the book. I thought she was calling to tell us that they had delivered early..not the news I was expecting to hear! She was due just 3 days before me! How could this have happened? Jackson James will forever be in our hearts!
Dad and I cried and grieved and talked a lot tonight. We can't imagine the pain that our closest friends are going through. We gave you the biggest hug and kiss that night! We are very thankful that you are here with us, and healthy.
All I wanted to do was go home and sleep in my own bed tonight. I was mentally drained. The nurses however wanted us to stay, and attend all the night feedings, to ensure that you were getting enough food from me and not needing any additional supplements.
Wednesday 7.25.12
We arrived this morning to find you out of your isolette and into a regular crib! Everyday is a new milestone and closer for you for being discharged. We are so pleased.
The nurses dressed you in winter jammies (kinda funny since it was 102 out today!) and you are holding your temperature well!
You are finally back up to your original birth weight of 4.14lbs!
When I changed your diaper this morning, I noticed that your umbilical cord "stump" had fallen off. The nurse had informed me that it had fallen off during your bath overnight.
Thursday 7.26.12
Today was a low key day nothing too exciting. You continue to thrive and be spell free. We have pretty much been told you will be getting out on Saturday!
Dad playing Temple Run on his phone. He downloaded this game, and would play this while I was pumping or feeding.
This particular feeding made us laugh (and gag) Joseph (the NICU baby behind us) took a big, stinky, loud poop. I guess Joseph only poops about once a week (not sure why!) and we were lucky enough to share this experience with him. His poor mom was on the verge of throwing up! We were trying to contain our laughter.
All swaddled up and warm.
Friday 7.27.12
Overnight/early this morning they ran your car seat test. They placed you in your car seat for 90 minutes and monitor your vitals. I arrived at your 5:30 feeding, only to be informed that you "did not properly fit in your seat" Excuse me? I know it is rated for 5-30lbs and you are a few ounces shy..but seriously? Apparently we need to go buy a new seat..I am LIVID!! We have a matching travel system and I really don't want to go spend another $150 on a car seat, I know we don't need! I return to our room, and tell Pat what they told me. We return to the NICU at 8:30 and he informs another nurse that the seat is adjustable and then dials the knob down. The ditzy nurse had it cranked up as high as it would go...no wonder you didn't fit! (I wonder how many other people she has done this to?)
You were finally allowed to room out with us today. You arrived in our room around 10am with a bili blanket (your levels were only slightly elevated) as a precautionary measure. It is so good to see you without all of those wires and monitors attached to you.
The London 2012 Olympics started tonight. Dad picked up Panera for dinner and we had a very nice dinner with grandma in our room while watching the opening ceremony
Our little glow worm
Saturday 7.28.12
Finally the day we have been waiting for..DISCHARGE DAY!! The nurses came and picked you up early this morning to run some last minute labs on you. She returned you just in time for the hospital photographer to make her rounds. You really weren't feeling pictures at all! It was almost time to eat and I think you might have been a bit cold. We got some really great shots in your fancy hats though and had to be quick with the pacifier, cuddles and "whooshing" noise to keep you happy.
The weekend doctor checking you out, and giving you the "all clear"
After getting you dressed in your going home outfit, we packed up the cart and the crib and headed back to the NICU. I was super nervous driving you back, while trying to stay off the carpet sensors. (to avoid setting off the "baby low jack")
Packed up and ready to go we are finally free!
Out in the car and headed home. What a crazy 11 days it has been.









